Time May Not Be of the Essence!
©
2007, Kimberly V. Schneider, LPC

New Year's is a natural occasion to reflect on the passage of Time.  And yet, this past week I've also been very aware of how malleable time can be.

 
I've been reading Lynne McTaggart's book, The Intention Experiment (and wow, if you haven't taken in this mind-blowing book that summarizes the available science to date about how consciousness shapes reality, do so now!)  In a truly fascinating chapter on healing the past, McTaggart talks about the idea that prayers and intentions in the present can actually make a difference not just now or in the future, but in the past as well.
 
McTaggart's findings came as no surprise to me, because esoteric teachings and quantum physics both posit that Time is only a construct of the mind.  I've seen this idea work with my clients time and time again as I've helped them re-write the "scripts" of traumatic memories to produce real healing in the present, not only for themselves, but often for their ancestors and children too.  
 
Right before Christmas I had an opportunity to play with Lynne McTaggart's idea of healing the past for myself.   
 
On December 23 I decided to go to the grocery store to finish my food shopping for Christmas (along with, apparently, most of the rest of the people in St. Louis).  Inspired by my Mom, who had told me of her plan to cope with the holiday crowds by spreading peace and joy along the way, I entered the scene fortified with a light heart and ample patience.  
 
I had a delightful time, really.  I'd just completed my last work "to do" before a self-imposed holiday break, so I felt free and easy.  I meandered down the aisles, singing and humming to the Christmas carols playing over the speakers at Dierbergs.  I had almost completed my shopping when I encountered a woman who was hurrying along the aisles at a breakneck speed.  I was amazed she could move so quickly in her high heeled pumps.  When I looked at her face, I saw tension, worry, fatigue.  I could have made up a lot of stories about what was going on in her life that day to put her at that place, but instead I silently blessed her and thanked her for bringing to mind someone else who needed my help.
 
That someone else was my younger self. 
 
I remember the days of trying to squeeze one more second out of every hour.  I remember flying down the aisles at the grocery store, no doubt cutting off other shoppers in my panic to get one more thing done before I picked up my kids.  And I remember the day that I stopped that mad dash long enough to stand in the baby aisle for a few seconds, looking for something to bring home to my infant daughter-- then being surprised by the tears that leaked out of my eyes as I stood there.  I had stopped running.  I had stopped long enough to face the possibility that because of her developmental issues, my daughter might never learn to play with baby toys.  
 
I thought about all of this last week at the grocery store, and my heart overflowed with love for that young woman who was me, who was doing her best to hang on by moving so fast she'd never feel anything.  I sent her the knowledge that it would pass.  That things would change.  I whispered to her that yes, there would be challenges, but there would be lightness and joy ahead too. 
 
And I wonder now, as I look back, whether the gift of love I sent myself last week might have been part of what made the difference for me so many years ago.  And maybe even now my wiser Self is pulling for me as I stretch myself to the limit to give birth to my most expansive and exciting projects to date.  Yes, I expect she is encouraging me right now as I send this article off to you.
 
So here's my New Year's wish for you:  In the best moments of the coming year, may you always remember to send some love and joy, not only to anyone in the planet who could use it, but also to any parts of your past self that are in need.  And in moments of challenge, may you step into the silence and hear, not only the Divine support you wish for, but also the loving whispers of your Wiser future Self.  Have a beautiful year.